Masama loob ko

Ang sama pa rin ng loob ko.

Pesteng uterus yan oh. Why oh why of all the days I could possibly have dysmenorrhea, it had to be that Friday?! (December4) I had been planning to go to the German Christmas Market for 2 weeks and I had permission to stay out late! But fuck no. I had to be hit with pain, strong enough to make me shiver and sweat at the same time. Mukha pa namang maganda yung lesson sa Socio.(Hindi ako naka-concentrate. Nakatungo lang ako.) Shet talaga. Tapos diba Karolfest din nung araw na iyon...syempre punta ako para suportahan ang Buklod at si Nuni. (KAY TAGAL NA NAMING HINDI NAKAKAPAG-USAP NI NUNI!!!) PERO AYUN hindi kinaya ng macho kong katawan tapos kainis pa nadulas ako (pero hindi naman natumba) at nasira ang aking tsinelas. GRABE HA. Yung tsinelas na yun suot ko kapag umuulan, kapag tumatakbo, at sa simple almost-dulas ay nasira siya. Grabe lang. Masama talaga loob ko. Gusto ko pang manatili sa QC pero hindi ko talaga kinaya yung sakit, nahilo pa ako. Ay eto pa, sabi ko magta-taxi na lang ako kasi hindi ko kakayanin umakyat ng stairs ng MRT ng ganun. Na-deny ako ng mga manong ng 3 beses! Ayaw nila pumuntang Ugong, Pasig. Ewan, siguro takot sa trapik ng Ortigas. Anyway after ng matinding paghihintay ng taxi ay nakasakay rin ako. Trapik pa sa Katipunan. :|

Pagdating ko sa bahay na-deny pa sa akin ang pain killers. Masama daw yung laging idinadaan sa gamot. I wanted to scream at mother "YOU ARE SAYING THAT BECAUSE YOU CAN'T FEEL THE PAIN." I am not being a sissy. I can handle pain pretty well. I'm the kid who trips down the stairs on an almost-regular basis. (Proud ako. Slight. Kasi naman who falls down the stairs that much and is still alive? ME. AKO LANG.) Pero hindi rin nila ako natiis. After looking pathetic for at least an hour bumigay si Mama at pinayagan na akong uminom ng Alaxan. Kaso wala naman pala. :( Eh ayaw ko namang maabala si Mama at lumabas pa para bumili ng gamot eh sabi ko wag na lang. Penge na lang ng prutas at nang ma-distract ako. Pinatulog nila akong maaga. Ok lang ako dun kasi masarap namang matulog pero problema lang eh nagigising ako kasi ang sakit nung likod ko. Saka bad idea sigurong matulog ng naka-shorts, lalo na at ang lamig ngayon. XD (Eh yun yung una kong nakitang pantulog eh.) Tapos nakita ko yung "Thank you" text ni Ate Ellen. Nalungkot ako lalo. :( WAAAHHH. Naalala ko yung lahat ng awesomeness na na-miss ko. Hindi naman ako deserving dun sa heart-warming thank you text ni Ate...:((

Hay. Andaming awesome things nung Friday. Hindi ko napuntahan kasi nahilo ako. Sana naman na-meet ko na ang aking "PRIMA ANG FAIL AT MALAS NG LIFE MO" quota for this year.

Ang konsolasyon ko lang eh bago pa man manakit ang aking kalamnan eh nakasama ko sina Kamae, Ayesha, Fame, Kym, Ate Ellen, Mikee at Dan. Tagal ko na ring hindi nakakasama si Kamae. Machong miss ko na yun. Haha. Ayun tapos ang bait bait ni Fame, kahit nagmamadali siya eh hinintay niya pa rin ako. :P At syempre si Nerissa. :) Nahiya nga ako sa kanya eh, kasi ang tagal ko na siyang kinulit tungkol dun sa German thing tapos bigla-bigla akong magtetext na hindi na ako makakapunta. Hiyang-hiya ako. Pero naintindihan niya ako. :D Nag-offer pa nga siyang puntahan ako. *touch* Tapos tinawagan ko siya eh nakalimutan ko na maaga kami pinalabas, feel ko nasa klase pa siya nun. Hayy...Di bale, I will make it up to her! :D:D

Maka-get over na sana ako kasi nalulungkot lang talaga ako.

Shameless Fangirling...before I hit the books

I am a sucker for Justin comforting Brian. Like Brian's that hard to connect to that only Justin can truly kiss it better. :) (Also Brian in a robe GUH. He is sooo handsome. Like he's all sosyal with the blue silk robe and whiskey. Heh.) Gale still looks HAWT at 40. See:

HEY SEMI-REUNION! ^ These were taken around October or something. :D Look at the eyebrow. Omg. I want to be able to do that.

INTENSE.^ Peter and Wendy.

I could post a shitload of Gale pictures just to further support the fact that he is still handsome. :) I would. Some other time.

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YOU GUYS. My Socio 101 Prof called me "Macho." *flexes biceps* She was discussing to us that why do men who have been convicted of rape still refuse to admit to their crime, while men who murder almost always admits to their crime. Murder is considered a "macho" crime, rape is not. You use your strength to take someone's life. In rape...well, you really need to force someone eh? We talked about a lot more and surprisingly I enjoyed the class. And to think I wanted to cut. :D (Well...I always want to cut. I usually get guilt-tripped into backing out. BUT NEVER ASK ME "Cut na ba?" BECAUSE I WILL SERIOUSLY LEAD YOU TO THE DARK PATH.)

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Also yay 115! I am excited~ I want to perform experiments! On people! :D I have to actually go inside the library and do research. Blegh. Hehe...

Career Talk

*long overdue

I decided to go to a career talk hosted by the Psychedelics for Psych majors. I wanted to go because 1.) I really have no fucking idea what to do with my life and 2.) I want to spend time with the Mean girls. :)

They invited professionals over to tell us a little something about their jobs, to let us see what we wanted, what we could be. There were people from HR, Medicine, Psych and Market Research. (walang Law...:( omg my heart broke. damnnnn it.)

I sat there and tried to see myself doing any of those. I can only see myself clapping my hands and bouncing off the walls happy in Psych, specifically Forensic Psych. FORENSIC PSYCHOLOGY PEOPLE. I WANT. I WANT, LIKE I WILL TOTALLY GIVE UP FANDOM TO GET IT WANT. Problem is that they don't over an MA in Forensic Psychology in UP. or anywhere else...one has to go out of the country. GAHD. Hmm. Kaya ko kaya yun? Syempre I'd have to go and look for a program that will support me~ (My parents still have my little sister to think of, I have my little sister to think of.) The more I think about it, the more I WANT it.

Well at least I have direction! *points resolutely at some vague area*

I actually toyed with the idea of shifting to European Languages. Wala lang. Parang ang cool kasi. Lol German Major syempre. haha. Then again, I don't know. Maybe I'm still on the first month high. Maybe because our instructor is nice and awesome.

Well for whatever reason...it's still a good idea no? At some point everybody thought of shifting to a different course. Like say, PolSci or Bio or Philo. OR LIKE MAYBE LIT.

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You guys...I have like a squick fic on the other tab and it's bothering me. I mean I hate squick fics...so why am I reading it? My god. My fascination for the...hmm...socially objectionable will someday fry all my brain cells and render me incontinent. It's like eating jello while watching Saw or CSI or Hannibal (the scene with the brain). RED JELLO. AND SPAGHETTI WITH THICK RED SAUCE. MMMMMMMMM. *licks lips*

Disgusting. *shakes head*

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Btw KEVIN I am loving Blind Assassin. Vielen Dank, Freund. :D

Relaxing

I am a proud owner of bad-ass guinea pig.

I will seriously write that^ in anything that requires me to describe myself. Petr is that awesome.
I have been watching Petr all day yesterday because he lost weight. It was probably because he can't eat as much as he did because of his broken bottom teeth. So I've been hand feeding him string beans and bread...grabe for someone who had broken teeth Petr was still aggressive in trying to get my food. HE ATE MY STICK-O. Anyway yesterday he was thin, now he's fat again. My guinea pig, HE IS ON SOME KIND OF A YO-YO DIET. Well anyway since tomorrow I leave for school I decided that I will play with Petr today. :) I always play with him but you know when you're that cute and that BAD-ASS you can never have enough. I'll probably venture out later to buy him some carrots. Soft carrots.

I watched Merlin last night and it was GUH. Teary eyed Merlin is so adorable and it made me clutch my sister's leg and scream NOOOOOOO GAIUSSSS!!! Petr was also in my lap and was subsequently semi-choked. OMG AND ARTHUR RESTRAINING MERLIN FROM PUNCHING THE WITCHFINDER. IT WAS PRECIOUS. I like their moments.

Now I have to go and read a shit load of fics because I intend to focus on school tomorrow. :)

Excited pare...

I'm trying to think of what I should be doing to prepare for classes on Tuesday and I've come up with a checklist! If I put it there I would probably get the idea and actually do them.

Checklist for the upcoming semester aka shopping list and things to arrange:

[ X] Big-ass Notebook.

• In the end isang napakalaking notebook na lang binili ko. Natuwa ako sa Cattleya eh...ewan...
  

[X ] Pens

• 2 black, ballpoint pens
• Green or bright blue gel pen. (Any color that pops out from the page) I got light blue and pink.
  

[ X] index cards

[ ] 1x1 ID pictures

• You may throw in some 2x2, just in case.

[ ] liquid eraser

[ ] Wrapping paper for big-ass notebooks

• Options will be of course the standard black one. purple one or print out decent pictures/ screen caps from Queer As Folk/CSI:NY/Glee/whatthefuckever
• Of course wrap the notebooks! Refrain from putting name in front.
  

[ X] Plan for TUESDAYS (AND POSSIBLY ALSO THURSDAYS) WITH NERI!

• Will I go to Katipunan? If so, where will we meet?

[ ] Get a GOOD German phrase book/dictionary.

[ ] Get apples. (They will keep you awake and healthy!)

So you see I have a lot of shit to get. (I'm fussy when it comes to wrapping things up in plastic.) It's kinda funny that I passed by 3 malls today only to remember Oh shit. School supplies! by the time I got home. I knew there was a reason why I wanted to go to National Bookstore.

In other news Petr's bottom teeth are broken. I am very concerned. He's annoying but he's a nice guinea pig. I looked up any reasons for the teeth breaking and it's from falling. I admit he has been falling a lot. He keeps jumping off my lap, my hand, my table! A jumpy fellow he is! Anyway I'm going to watch him closely and then get him some soft food.

Queening Out *tongue in cheek*

My fandom is complicated. :( It doesn't help that I am 8 years behind. How am I supposed to catch up on all that? Some sites have been taken down/deleted. WHHHHHHYYYY??? Think of the children! The internet is large! I think the children deserve a fandom! What?! are we gonna take the ozone layer and a possible fandom?! I'm ranting because I wanted to read stuff from bjfic.net. A lot of fics were posted there and only there. I mean a girl can only take so much...:'( It's not right. They give you these recs and gush about how awesome they are then the only link in existence is from bjfic or WORSE some geocities site. (OMG and that too! Yahoo is closing GeoCities! So many fics...) *sigh* Man...when I was in 3rd grade I didn't think of these kind of things, I DID NOT KNOW OF THEIR EXISTENCE. Sayang.

*sigh* To think I would get a lot done in my sembreak. I guess I would have take a deep breath and keep a stiff upper lip. There are a lot of other places. (Across the pond, Moonshadow Tribe, LJ, IJ, Midnight Whispers etc...) Those will have to suffice.

Hayy. My next fandom should be one that thinks of the children. (lol when I undergo binary fission or budding my kinda offspring will be sitting here and reading triciaqaf's fics and she will blush and then run to me and say "YOU. EVIL. BITCH." she will then jump me and hug me to death thus ensuring that the world can only have one Prima.)

Feel free to stalk me...

Or at least envy my fabulous luck. (I know I shouldn't be so cocky because one day this will all blow up in my FACE.)

Anyway here is my schedule for the next sem. I'm still not sure if I should sign up for another subject. I can have a maximum of 21 units but why would I be so eager as to go looking for more work? Ok na yan.


Psych 115 is suuuupppeeer long. :( Wala ata akong makakasabay kumain. Ewan ko lang sa Buklod peepz... pero I mean waaahh baka hindi ko makita si Evette next sem. Next sem na lang ako kukuha ng Psych 108. Maybe I'll get lucky and sign up for it with Patty.

So yeah. All I'm waiting for is Neri's schedule. If our lunch times coincide I'm gonna be going to Katipunan for lunch!

In other news I am FREE! I AM DONE WITH EVERYTHING ACAD RELATED! :)